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a) there is this thing called ... --------------------------------- "In any given time, most people have accepted the cruelest wrongs as right Whether through indifference, ignorance, or brutality, most people, oppressor and oppressed, have apologized for atrocity, defended it, justified it, excused it, laughed at it, or ignored it The oppressor, the one who perpetrates the wrongs for his own pleasure or profit, is the master inventor of justification He is the magician who, out of thin air, fabricates wondrous, imposing, seemingly irrefutable intellectual reasons which explain why one group must be degraded at the hands of another He is the conjurer who takes the smoking ash of real death and turns it into stories, poems, pictures, which celebrate degradation as life's central truth He is the illusionist who paints mutilated bodies in chains on the interior canvas of the imagination so that, asleep or awake, we can only hallucinate indignity and outrage He is the manipulator of psychological reality, the framer of law, the engineer of social necessity, the architect of perception and being" http://www.nostatusquo.com/ACLU/dworkin/WarZoneChaptIVA.html b) we fly balloons on this fuel called ... ------------------------------------------ to the smell of hot creosote at the back of a small laboratory i heard this ditty sung one shift by an old bloke, us head chemist nick named dunky -- stand, by, your beds here comes the air vice marshall he's got bags of stripes but he's only got one arse hole -- i look round at him and he nods -- they used to call 'em wankers tha knows us bunks wakey wakey hands off shakey -- he intones -- drop your rocks and grab your socks bromine -- i suggest -- erm, erm, u mean bromide -- corrects micheal to the right of us -- i don't think it would have had any effect r kid -- sez dunky -- not with that crew ... ... i told mi mate one about dunky recently about cribbage scoring and over pegging ... -- we'd have us snap first the four of us, we three above and little trevor, then clear the crumbs siden the table, and around it play crib in paired couples -- ... go wash your hands -- would snarl dunky -- before touching these cards am not having you marking them ... -- well, it wasn't as though the cards weren't marked to fuck in the first place if one but looked but it was the pegging that dunky took umbrage with to the extent of having to hand a large brass cog to rap weight behind his pegging corrections -- ... shuffle cut for box shuffle and deal five ... ... these cards are very sticky are ya sure ye washed ye hands throw one in the box then cut for his nobility king nine that's a box breaker here r kid let's begin 7 with a 7 15-2 21 for 3 31 for 2 ... -- dunky, used to irritate folk when he filled in as shift supervisor on holiday cover, he'd irritate me when he worked the night shift if only because, it left us short of a fourth lunch time player i asked this character briggy one day to come and fill in for doubles -- not today sweetheart -- sez briggy -- i can't concentrate it's thi mate, dunky he just dunt care he's a fucking nightmare ... -- and with that, briggy departed back in to his office with a cup of char and a newspaper -- ... what's up wi her 'as she got an headache -- sez i to mi mate little trevor -- nayow, dunky rang him up last night loads ... here r kid does tha know that 50 pen mix we've got going out to knottingly does tha think if we did this then that might happen well mebe -- sez briggzy -- can't we leave this til the morning ok r kid -- said dunky, but then after, about half an hour later he rang him up again -- here r kid does tha know how this effluent's been high well i was thinking if we did this to the bug plant then we might get this to happen the bug plant -- barks briggzy -- surely this one can wait til morning i wain't be there in the morning r kid will i -- sez dunky -- i'll be sleeping but am awake now and when i'm awake it's a privilege for others to get their kip not a right ... -- a giggle and sey -- cou'n't he have left 'em a note course he could -- replies little trev -- he always does when he's on a night shift reams of the stuff i think they hate it tha knows they have to think about it ... come on -- sez trev -- we'll play singlets, wi micheal winner stays on, loser pegs we'll not get the cog art today ... -- i think the cog said more about dunky though than us, although i just don't know i was only in mi teens when i started playing in that crib school and in hindsight, youthful innocence however manifest, seldom remains uncorrupted as one get's older, if only because nowadays corruption is passed off, or otherwise portrayed by the politicos as being the real, mature and every enduring state of humanity ... c) ... now when the storms are in your head ... ----------------------------------------------- you've got a good memory you you'd make a great detective -- i said to someone long ago -- i have a photographic memory -- said this someone -- but it is very selective i'd think i'd make a politician ... -- i was round at theirs recently this someone made me laugh again we were making beige cardboard boxes and packing stuff up for a shift we stood back, and this someone pointed, to their designer bags brimming, with bits and bobs collected off dressing tables tops and said -- ... look, i am redundant and i have become a bag women -- i giggled and replied -- can you remember you said once upon a time if you were to marry me you'd end up as a bag lady no, did i when when i asked you to marry me you've never asked me to marry you yes i did can't you remember no, i think i would have recalled can't ye, well it dunt matter it was a long time ago, up in the arts tower but you said -- no, if we got married we'd end up living in a small place probably in what your old school call a potentially violent area just before we split and you wondered the streets as a bag lady oh, yes, now i recall, vaguely you were in work then weren't you yes and you were serious i thought so but if you missed it i couldn't have been serious enough can't you remember me asking no, not really not any serious proposal it's funny init, memory -- the lady nods and says -- ah, did you have a ring no well then -- says this someone -- how was i suppose to know you were being serious ... -- i bite mi thumb knuckle and shake mi head this someone shakes their head too and in time sez -- did i hurt you no, i dint work out like that, did it you were there we'd been faffing about for quite a bit and i wasn't going anywhere romatically until i cleared the air with you and it cleared the air with you ... -- the lady nods -- -- in time i say -- you'll get work again you know sure, sure i haven't looked yet really i can't, not here the only work available to me here is the type i did when i was a student it's like i've wasted all the time in between nayow, you haven't you being doing other stuff too and it's just a profession when all said and done and you've had others and in any case your skills are transferable i mean, i don't have your profession but have done the degrees and they come in very handy at work you bound to get a start somewhere of course i'll get a start somewhere as you term it i just don't want to start again here i can't go back, you understand it won't be as daunting in a different city to start again yes, i understand we've not managed to nationalise you yet then i thought we had you don't get nationalised by a city silly and it isn't as though i'm leaving the country i know .. oh, what did i read the other day it was a quote about re training borges i think, he imagined a time much like ours, in that the political class had very much lost their direction if they'd ever had one to begin with and as a matter of practicality had been off-hired, before they could do any further damage, he noted that the politicians, post dismissal tended to make a living as faith healers or comedians i have a quote for you it's from little dorrit -- the circumlocution office was (as everybody knows without being told) the most important department under government no public business of any kind could possibly be done at any time without the acquiescence of the circumlocution office its finger was in the largest public pie, and in the smallest public tart it was equally impossible to do the plainest right and to undo the plainest wrong without the express authority of the circumlocution office if another gunpowder plot had been discovered half an hour before the lighting of the match, nobody would have been justified in saving the parliament until there had been half a score of boards, half a bushel of minutes, several sacks of official memoranda, and a family-vault full of ungrammatical correspondence, on the part of the circumlocution office ... -- i giggle, and sez -- it's kafkaesque, init like gilliam's brazil -- this some one nods, and sez -- tell me now tuttle would you be moving if you were me sure, if i was single i'd be long gone ... -- later that night in hindsight i was struck be the following thought -- what do i mean, if i was single, i'd be long gone i am single also ... -- a child asked me one a bit ago -- you'd never hit mummy would you -- i looked at the kid's mam shake me head, lolled a little and said -- nayow dunt be a dafty am not daft me -- sez the kid -- you could be mi new dad -- i look at the kid's mam say something benign to the child and am thinking -- you don't have to hit people to hurt them ... -- half a life ago one o'mi mates said allegedly -- i know he's a lunatic but he's my lunatic -- mi mate was talking about me at the time if mi grandad had been there no doubt he's have said somat laconic, like -- it's got to that stage then, has it -- if i'd have been there i suspect i'd have just valued the 'my' i'd asked mi mate then if they would consider mariage they were studying an ology and said no but they would consider having a child by either aragon or daley thompson -- you must like the taste of wedding cake -- queried a scottish miner mate, a lot later when we stood above a slip form chamber near the niche upon sylvester, me returning from a twelve week scan, conclusive evidence of another option --- nayow it's not like that i don't think i'll have to this time i don't think she's that bothered and anyway, have on'y just got married to someone else, we've got a baby too we've not been split up long i'd need to get another divorce first fuck, what does your misses think does she know course she knows what can she think it's been quick but we had a clean split and we're still talking i suspect one part of her mind wants to cut mi bollocks off though ... -- a couple of years before the phone rang, and i answered it -- main drainage is that you -- says the person at the other end of the phone -- -- i recognise the voice and say -- yes it's me is that you you've just caught me i'm just about to get off well go then -- says the person with some abruptness -- oh, is that what you rang for -- silence -- hallo are you still there -- and i say the persons name -- yes, i'm still here what's wrong it'll wait when will you be back sunday night what's up please ring me when you get back what's up -- silence and then other sounds -- -- i say the persons name again more as a query than anything else -- i think i'm pregnant oh ... have you done a test yes of course i've done a test well then you probably are how can i be what do you mean how can you be where are you what where are you geographically oh, at jane's does she know yes, i had to tell someone good, can you pack a bag and i'll come get you i can't come with you and besides i can't be pregnant i just can't what do you mean you can't you did biology at school dint ya i mean i can't be pregnant not now not with you has there been anybody else no, of course not then it must be me then no, i mean you have a plan for life that doesn't involve this that doesn't involve me in fact, you've planned against this i know, i'll come pick you up i want to see you no, go to scotland and call me when you get back we both need to think about our options we'll both have time while you're away no, we need to do this together can you be ready in half an hour i can't come with you course you can and we'll stick together at least until we know what we're going do i know what i'm going do -- barks the lady -- i'm keeping it a know, i wouldn't have thought otherwise nor would have i persuaded you to do otherwise i meant, what we're going to do not you just by yourself i can't you've not planned for this listen sweetheart reality supersedes any plan o'mine it always has i'll pick you up yeah i do love you, you know if it's any consolation ... -- the lady above rang me some time later i was expecting her call things had happened that day and i was distracted i answer the phone with the name of my work -- is that you -- says the lady -- -- i recognise her voice, smiled and said yes and how's it going -- i've had my baby when -- sez i -- about an hour ago oh, every thing alright yeah she's fine what about you yeah, just fine what, just fine just like the last time yeah, well nothing to write home about i'll tell you all about it when you're down at the weekend wow, well done you what weight hold on, wait have you seen the news no one will forget this birthday in a hurry no, what you on about haven't you seen it two planes have crashed in to skyscrapers in new york the telly's saying it's terrorists it's all over the news news, news -- barked the lady -- i'm telling you what the news is today i've just had a baby ... -- after i split from the lady above i went round to an old mate and filled them in about it -- is it final -- said mi old mate -- yes, i think i've done it as cleanly as i could i thought you loved her i do -- sez i -- but we didn't split up through any lack of love either though did we luv no, i guess not how is she not good but she knew it was coming but she thought i'd be open to negotiation oh, it is that final then yes, i'm leaving the flat next week and am going to be lodging with a mate for a bit ... no, lower your eyebrows a male mate, a colleague from work you've had this planned yes, in one way yes i made the decision a long time ago or rather, something happened and i knew i had to move or get swallowed, but it's been very difficult i hate doing this, it's heartbreaking every time is she at the flat now do you want me to go round yeah, her mates are with her she's been poorly all week tummy bug apparently, had leave it a day or two if i were you, but i don't think it'd do any harm, a familiar face and you could talk her through the benefits if you don't mind sure, what about the house oh, it's gone through we exchanged last week she'll be out of the flat before me i think it'll better for her a fresh start sure, the kids had picked up on it you know i suppose they were bound to are they alright yes i didn't want to mention it it's between you two and that's what i told our two don't worry, this won't disturb them too much is there room at your friends for weekends sure, we'll be a bit squashed mind for a bit, but look at her she dunt tek up much room ... -- i point to my baby asleep on the table between us in a removable rear facing car crib -- .... and mi mate won't mind if i tidy up his gaff a little and make more space although he might turn his nose up if i use an aerosol you could come and stay with us on a weekend if it would make things easier thank you good, then i'll get to see more of her -- i lol and sez -- always look on the bright side no one's died in fact, quite the reverse where is the negative -- corrects my mate -- -- i nod -- -- mi mate looks over at my baby sleeping and sez -- i thought she'd have fought for you more she did but it didn't matter that's what i mean i thought she was a lot stronger than that yeah, no, she is i mean i don't think it matted or rather, i don't think i matted i mean, it wasn't 'i' that was her bottom line she already had her bottom line from when she first met me it must have felt like her top she knew i was a dad that kept in touch with his kids she'd not seen many like that before she used to come around on a weekend just to get used to the idea any thing beyond that was pure romance ... -- i stop, and shake mi head -- ... i wanted to do so much better this time for her, and i've just put her through a life time of pain, and i don't want to hurt her ever, ever again ... -- i shake my head again and sey -- what is wrong with me -- mi old mate looks at me and sez -- you're emotional -- i lol, and sey -- am going to get back am going to miss her -- i stand up pick up my baby stop lolling and sey -- am going to really miss them when, -- states me mate -- you know where there going you've just got them a house you have had this planned for a long while haven't you -- i stop at the door -- no, well, it wasn't quite like that but this one's well rehearsed how do you mean -- mi old mate is intrigued -- well she knew that after i finished with you i was happy to walk with just mi books and mi records so if i was expected anything more on top from her i was thinking like a romantic -- mi old mates roars lolling -- did she really say that the young are very resilient aren't they though but no, am joshing she dint have to am that used to representing her interests i do it as a matter of course all i've done, is tried to get her a start -- mi mate said something to me then that was probably meant to be a compliant so i didn't let it lie, and sez -- but you're right about the young am not going to do so well with the music this time her and me like the same stuff you see with you, we either had doubles or we were just a generation apart i ought to throw this cushion at you go, and give me call if you need to ... d) ... we fly balloons on this fuel called ------------------------------------------ oh, i was up north recently and i heard one in a pub four blokes walk in to a bar paddy irish, taffy welsh jock the scot and tommy english well, the person behind the counter just took one look at them and said -- what's this, another joke -- mi mate laughs and sez -- why did you go up there have you got anything to confess you know we're keeping a sweepstake oh don't, it got a bit heavy -- mi mate roars with laughter and sez -- it always gets a bit heavy with yor one oh -- stops mi mate and enquires as to the course of a family dispute -- nayow, they're talking again -- i reply -- they're back to lovey dovey well, it's not quite the same he's older now, inhe it was very peculiar though it was great having him around again full time, but he's a lot bigger now he's way bigger than me and am sure he's still growing and have got back used to the space, of a weekend daddy also, he's quite a raconteur ye know i don't know where he gets it from do you know, i found myself having to have words with him i ended up correcting his english of all things -- mi mate roars in laughter again -- we were down, doing a shop on infirmary road, just a couple o'bits and bobs, toiletries, he got a comic, and i got a bottle of grouse the whiskey had a plastic security collar have you seen them, this one's white, the lass at the counter bangs the neck of the bottle very precisely in to a socket beside her till that somehow magnetically frees the spirit bang, bang, bang, baang, she's goes other folk are looking not just me, bang, bang, bang, baang she goes once more, and it comes off she's obviously done that trick before and they smile at each other, sweet and chat about the comic i keep out of it, i don't get most of the references i've not seen the same movies and a lot of the actors i only know by face but am standing well out of this one whilst they chit chat but, it din't take them that long flicking through the mag, pointing to various characters before they'd built up to some kind of crescendo and she says to him -- i'm not bothered i have a boyfriend in fact i'm engaged and she shows him a ring to which, he just mumbles some patronising apology about it not being her fault as he found her sex of little interest so i said to him as we departed -- what was that all about she's only here to do her job if you can't be civil you best stow it it was her not me that started it -- sez he -- and anyway, she obviously doesn't understand me does she, or she wouldn't have shown me the ring i don't think i understand it -- i replied -- but that last bit held me intrigued what -- sez he -- when i played the gay card oh, you were playing -- sez i -- it dint sound very gay to me it sounded more like sour grapes ... -- you know, all that learning and he didn't get the reference now you know i don't mind how love manifests itself between any of the seven sexes but it was the head game aspect that held my dandy irritated ... -- mi mate roars with laughter again and says -- what is courtship if not head games no don't but i know i tried to keep out it but finally i found myself saying - listen sweetheart, i'm not your friend am your dad oh -- giggles mi mate -- did it get that bad nayow, not really but sometimes, i just felt i needed to nip things in the bud -- mi mate grins and nods -- so did you did i what the sweepstake it's grim up north -- i stare at mi mate and state the name of a second lady briefly explaining how we became involved via various happenstance -- so afterwards, after that first night anyway -- sez i -- once we'd secured the house and picked up the motorbike but before the bobbies became involved we went out for a few beers and a curry and that's where she asked me just straight out, during the poppadoms no messing -- are you seeing anybody presently well i looked at her, smiled nodded to his mother, sat next to her and said -- yes, other than this lady i spend a lot of time with the mothers of my other kids too but your not with them, with them are you no, not at the mo -- i replied -- i am with you two, you two aren't i -- his mam intervened at that pedant and translated for me -- no, he's messing he's not with anyone no not presently nayow i'm not -- sez i -- i think i'm in enough trouble as it is, don't you ... -- mi mate grins and nods -- so did you did i what -- mi mate names the second lady -- no oh don't look so disappointed well i was looking forward to a good story you could always make one up i don't have to, i do have one for you listen, i'll go and get another drink same again no wait, i'll get them in ... -- mi mate goes up to the bar there, there is a blackboard upon it written in red green and white 'mixed olives' and a price i follow mi mate to the bar and get a bowl full with a couple of cocktail sticks -- i passed a lot of shops shut down on the way here tonight have you heard about woolys where am i gonna get mi brasso from where's anybody -- mi mate nods, and i pop one olive in my mouth and ask -- how's the credit crunch chewing you well, -- tuts mi mate -- i'm somewhat buffeted because i work in education but we laid one hundred off last month and have another hr1 notice pending i had a bloke come up to me the month before who'd lost his job in the city corporate side though, 120 a year said he'd settle for 40 well i don't have 40 spare who does -- i nod this time -- what about you yeah well, we've got a few little bits not enough though, unless i pull mi finger out we've not had enough all this last year really we'll probably fold the business and reform as some sort of social enterprise -- mi mate nods and says -- that would probably suit you better yeah, and it would mean i might get to get to sack misen again you never know, i might get away with it this time -- mi mate roars with laughter and asks after my work colleague -- oh, i had a strange one the other day i was round at mi welsh mate's chatting about a prototype fab lab and mi work colleague turns up in passing had not seen them for a couple of days so i told them the outcome of a job had gone for, well the possible cash side of it anyway small job, start january nowt to it really the client and me talk it through in front of a screen i show the client relevant stuff we'd done in the past and matched up the specific requirements and wishes kids kept knocking and coming in with cards i thought the client would have been stricter given their position, but they just melted and coughed, before becoming stern enough to evict the kids from the office other teachers passing, seeing what was happening, herded the kids with their good wishes down the adjacent corridor but every time it happened within thirty seconds the head's screen save came up showing sea frothing over the beautiful still smiling body of a relaxed bronzed youth i stare at the picture turn my head sideways to turn landscape to portrait and smile back at the face he's beautiful, says i the head nods, smiles and says -- yes, he's my son he died recently sometimes i just don't know how i'm going to make it i shake mi head at the parent and they shake for a bit then smile and say -- i have a very strong faith there must be some purpose i chat to the client and ask how it happened -- i shake mi head at mi mate in the pub, and state -- probably best to stay away from the details, tragic tragic, work accident the paramedics were just pumping fluids in to him, so he was still warm for when his mam and dad arrived his death was pretty much instantaneous -- i look at mi mate, and think well, whatever i think i sez -- i had a meeting with a paramedic recently i think she took to me ... -- i name the lady her name rhymes with the previous lines -- -- mi mate roars with laughter again -- i wrote the peugeot off it's taken mi this long to get this movement back -- sez i, meking a weird movement with one of mi arms -- what happened -- asked mi mate concerned -- oh, kids fucking about playing chase round one of the villages longston, longstale, or something bang out towards monsal head, south west both micras, i think fuck, air bags and everything -- i nod at mi mate and continue -- as your dad would say, shock the third derivative but both cars crumbled as designed i had to boot the door out i did it quick, survival kicked it i was barking at misen until i got out, and then i thought oh, you silly bugger, it's not gonna blow it's fucking diesel, not lighter fuel three of us though, holding us ribs another three un hurt and checking on their mates the driver came over and said sorry mate and asked me how i felt he tried to cuddle me later ... -- i do that quirky arm movement again waggle mi fingers a little bit more and say to mi mate -- how do i feel ... i'm alive -- mi mate roars with laughter again and i rename the lady -- she's a bit littler than me we were facing, about six inches apart she looked in mi eyes and said -- i excepted the worse i was told it was bad but as i arrived i quickly saw the state of the cars and thought good maybe they're walking maybe they're alive she was examining me at the time at the back of her van her hands were cold, she said are you sure you don't mind she'd stood me up first and pushed her stethoscope up under mi shirt, nodding over to the other driver, and the driver's mate sat awaiting examination nayow -- sez i, smiling -- i don't mind, am not shy i dunt think have done owt permanent but am worried about punctured lungs do you see that cabinet -- sez the lady -- if you had a punctured lung you'd be as pale as that and i doubt whether you'd be standing after doing what i've just asked well i thought it's a long time since have stared in a mirror i don't know how pale i am, do i so i looked straight in to her peepers and sez -- you're mi doctor for tonight -- mi mate lols, and sez -- well, did you did i what -- sez i -- defeat your sweepstake by chat and happenstance -- mi mate lols some more -- no, and in any case she was doing her job and obviously had enough to contend with at the best of times i left soon after i got called away by the chief officer they wanted me to move mi motor have tried -- said i -- we all did, we tried to bounce it off the road, no joy no -- sez, the c.o. -- i mean break down, do you have cover you don't appear to i'll need to call ours you'll be charged well i can try -- sez i -- and got through on mi moby to a brake down operator i have them on speed dial told them mi name, number and location based on road intersections and they said they'd be there within the hour the c.o. was listening in shakes head and says no go i'll take over, forget that i'll have some one here, a lot quicker tout de suite, if not sweeter i nod, and leave them too it loads o'folk swimming about regular emergency services ark two cop cars, two fire engines and an second ambulance arrives i sat down at the back on my beaten estate and watch the ordered movement i'm wearing my appendix g fluorescent adolescence i was waving traffic down when the lady arrived our garb some what matches i hear her from behind she is dismissing the second ambulance and being dissed by a fire crew she gives as good as she gets and i lolled, and it hurt and she comes over, and gets me back in her van, for the paper work name, address, phone number, g p i don't have one luv -- sez i -- i bat for the other side -- she just shuck her head, and said -- when was the last time you saw a doctor dunno, ten, twelve years ago i'm self employed now you see a sick note is next to no use for me -- she teks mi pulse, mi blood pressure and gives mi a mini medical whilst she ticks off the stuff i didn't have -- have you called home -- she queries -- i narrow my eyes in reply so they know you're ok oh, sez i, no they're no one expecting me oh, sez she don't you have a family yes, sez i waggling mi fingers so this many, but a few have flown the coop and i was just on mi way back from the littlest two blinking heck -- said the lady -- don't you watch telly i lolled, it hurt and said 'casualty' ... -- i shake mi head again and take another long drink -- that conversation with the head teacher kinda got to me though i stopped miself telling mi work colleague why would they wanna know save it for the new year if at all, i shouldn't have been worried do you know, mi colleague had come round to call us attention to the rendition monologues have you heard of them ... -- i shake mi head again -- no -- says mi mate -- but i think the name gives it away -- i nod -- i said to the head teacher i don't know, but sometimes it appears to me, that there is some sort of metaphysical balancing act going on somehow behind the scenes they nodded, and then shuck their head quickly and said -- no, that notion's dangerous here when it happened, some of my kids said take comfort sir, god, allah, he takes the best first you can imagine for what missions, it may recruit -- mi mate nods, and sez -- did you get to say goodbye to your brother -- i nod too, and sey -- course a did i wo saying goodbye for five years no i meant at the end -- i lol at mi mate, and sey -- course a did, can't you remember we got your dad's big old granada and drove it up here in a hurry don't you recall -- mi mate shakes his head, and sez -- are you still smoking, there's some seats out the back same again yeah ... -- we get another couple and go out the back patio there's noisy heaters hanging from some four bi fours posts that also support a timbre roof frame covered loosly with wind slapped tarpaulin we sit quiet for a quite bit and eat some crisps -- so there's no one else then -- mi mate munches -- -- i stare at my pint and remain silent -- well is there -- i state disturbia and then the name of another lady -- -- my mate lols then stops looks skywards lols and says -- i've never met a women whose name ends in an 'a' that doesn't have big tits -- i just stare at mi mate until the lolling stops -- oh, it's serious then do you know, have heard her mates call her 'big tits', and i've heard her express concerns that they might be too small it's wrong you know this it's all fucked up init so are they i wouldn't know -- mi mate lols, and sez -- who is she you know her or at least you've met her -- i reply, and explain the connection -- -- mi mate lols again this time big time and says -- you just might loose your bollocks after all how -- sez i -- -- mi mate names another lady, and asks me if this lady knows -- knows what, she knows we talk she's heard us talk, often what is there to know i don't know myself i think a best summed it up when i got caught on the phone by mi eldest brother, he'd got skype or somat, and just were after a social chat, nowt important but he tried to shedule me for a conversation one evening am out most nights -- sez i -- i go see yor nephews and nieces their mams invite me round for tea he was persistent -- what every night you have a tight rota don't you get time off for good behaviour what about thursday night or do you go back to square one er, occasionally -- sez i and name the lady, who you say may lead to my castration -- but on thursday am having tea, with her kids and she -- do you know what, he never asked the size of her breasts mi brother, he just said -- oh, is there anything romantic between you two and i stumbled, and i said -- er, no could there be -- he further queried me -- no bro, not in this universe anyway -- mi mate lols some more and says -- take heart, at least it makes a good wank fantasy -- i shake mi head at mi mate, and say -- do you know that lady i told you about earlier, the mate of the mother of your name sake the biker chick, it took her starter question back in the indian, to get me thinking ... and i thought -- i didn't give her a full and honest answer his mother knows though, she's seen us chatting also but she doesn't know what, as i don't know what but she knows you know, she's not behind the door -- i shake mi head some more and say -- it's all wrong you know this i can't be her best alternative am not having it oh, oh, oh -- laughs mi mate like some giant but beardless santa -- you've made that mistake before no, it is not the same she is not the same fuck -- i shake mi head -- as i said good wank material what's wrong with you do you have to bring things down to the lowest common denominator sorry, but you must see the funny side the funny side, the funny side -- starts i, then stop abruptly -- hey, i came across some porn the other day i was packing some stuff up for ya name sake and a came across a comic, they come with free dvds now, did you know -- mi mate grins and shakes his head -- well you've seen one, you've seen them all ha'n't ye, so i got misen two, hustler babies had not seen it close up in a long time it's not changed much, since i last looked you know, you can't make to love to paper we've had this conversation before, ha'n't wi -- i sez to mi mate who nods -- well you can't make love to tellys either but you can try -- mi mate snorts and giggles -- it's weird init all these machines and we're no more than cave men daubing crude images to excite some inner hunter it's natural -- exclaims mi mate -- there's nothing more natural than sex, is there no but this is not sex it's pornography, listen you've seen the stuff yourself it starts off with teenage girls dressed coyly, in garb matching some corresponding young pop idol a hint of stocking, then turn the page to a fast undressing, poses, smiles, lips then a3, my blood runs cold my babies in the centrefold they all want it you know, sex, rampant sex according to the comics, the shy ones the old ones, the married ones, love them all bang them on the window sill the long and the short and the tall there gagging for it, simply gagging for it it's all they ever think about apparently they're just naturals, run on ever ready batteries, wuf go get em lads some women do like sex you know -- retorts mi mate -- i know, i know -- sez i -- i've known a few and i've known a few who like pornography too although as a genre, they said they preferred erotica oh have you read any erotica yeah and and there's a lot more cleaning certainly cleaning yes, the male characters often seem to be cleaning things - i shake mi head -- funny if it weren't true -- mi mate shakes his their too and i continue -- what would you think if it was your daughter in the skin pics where she thought it was her best option to spread her legs and smile like she meant it it's not my daughter though is it it shouldn't matter i know of course it does and it must but all the same it shouldn't, what a world, what a poor apology for a world we live in, look how far we've really come still herding, pinning us orphans and exposed children prostrate, in prostitution -- mi mate lols, and says -- well don't look at it then if it upsets you so and it may ruin your eyes you know -- i giggle at this one and reply -- tom baker said to mary whitehouse once if you don't like watching it there's always the off button but it's omnipresent with this one init in a way, it's very subtle but really it's just another poncy ponzi pyramid scheme an older entrenched generation molding fresh youth in to entrenched ideas -- mi mate nods, and sez -- is she clever course she is isn't every one no, what does she do she's very good with her hands -- sez i -- here watch this -- i take an empty crisp packet and fold it to an small compact precise right angled isosceles triangle i lob it at my mate -- here, catch you do it -- i do the same with a second packet and throw it over -- pretty nifty, eh -- mi mate looks at the blue and pale green triangles and sez -- you've got it bad, haven't you oh, look these are navigation flags you see them on buoys it depends on which way they point here i'll show you -- says mi mate faffing with the diary lea -- keep north, keep west, keep south, keep east yeah, have seen them somewhere oh castaneda, castanets oh am gonna go squirt back in a sec yeah, same again yeah ... -- when i get back mi mate's still faffing and sez -- cheers for the beer what do you think you'll do then if you do manage to sack yourself dunno, through on the rock and roll i guess like a million other folk, three months hence it'll be in a different world in any case -- mi mate nods -- yes indeed, we're in interesting times arn't we though there's some interesting work going on round here on the river weirs, archimedes screws renewables, i'd like to take it underground do you know, i think i'm missing mi sewers he's got high hopes, he's got hiigh hopes -- intones mi mate -- well you've got to have a dream ha'n't ye, -- starts i with some enthusiasm -- i thought i might attack some development funding ... no, no no, no, no, no, no, no, no i have told you this before -- stops mi mate -- drains aren't dreams -- i just stare at mi mate, who lols, stops and says -- ok, ok, you've always been very peculiar about this i don't know why though sometimes you don't dream yourself above ground like with your young pal for instance whose good with her hands -- i stare at my mate who continues -- she's not your daughter you know nayow a know -- sez i -- she's her aunt -- mi mate lols and says -- did you here the one about the china man whose wife left him -- mi mate nods -- she went back to peeking, he went back to wanking that's not funny -- replies i resisting -- here, have got one if a centipede a bucket full how much would a precipice -- mi mate shakes their head -- a sheer drop -- sez i -- oh don't you like that one it's clean any way here, have got another one for you two cats sat on a roof which cat falls off last -- mi mate shakes their head again -- the one with the greatest mew do you get it, yeah, no, oh -- sez i, and name another lady -- she's upsticks and left the north now i helped her pack i was round at her cousin's recently with my landlord and a few others her cousin got talking about a few of his favourite things, first in their mother tongue then in english, looks, sounds, tastes etc he held court and was setting the questions starter for ten, some nice answers i thought a few cliched, but he could see me turning mi nose up, as it got cruder so he took the talk back to peaches, and days we'd picnicked on the beaches, and then he sprung one on me -- where would you like best to place your hands -- and he held up his hands in a cup -- i looked her cousin in the eye and lolled you're thinking of someone's bum aren't you -- sez he -- i nodded and said, goose peach which means to twist a fart in the vernacular or at least to hold one hypnotised see -- sez he -- got you, admit it lowest common denominator i already have -- sez i, picking up a cushion and placing it on my lap -- but third, i'd put the bum third really -- exclaims mi landlord -- what would you place above it a hand i'd like to hold someone's hand ah -- sez her cousin leaning forward with interest -- second base, good one, where first where first, the eyes dunt be a dafty you can't hold some body's eyes -- sez i -- no first, what i'd most like to do oh, i just can't tell you you'd only laugh go on, tell us -- sez her cousin -- don't be shy no, it's not that you'll really laugh and think it's one of mine -- i turn round, to my landlord and say -- can you remember when us work colleague tried to convert me in the cross guns that night to a social process, and put forth the proposition that we could easily reduce the duration of our general working day i thought about it, thought about my own jobs the time i waste arguing the toss with degree educated bods, arguing black is white to extract a profit, all these little shops yakking too each other, layer upon layer of wasted time, and i kopped us colleague's drift and saw capital's inefficiencies i nodded, and us colleague said -- i wouldn't be surprised if we would need to work, even two hours per day fuck -- sez i, shaking mi head now -- i can't have that what would i do with the rest of my time except waste it in drugs and masturbation yes, yes, yes -- laughs mi landlord -- i remember that one yes, you laughed at it then i think that's why i said it but us colleague didn't can you remember their reply -- and i turned to the wider group and said -- they just looked me straight in the eyes and stately flatly -- you need to pull your finger out -- i lift an index finger up and show the group -- look, this is a finger out is that it -- enquired her cousin -- your own finger, first you'd put your own finger first that is not very pleasant no i know and do you know what it wasn't really stuck any where to begin with, you know how it is i think many kids feel a strange pleasure sometime when they do a really big poo, but as you get older you tend to move on to other ones and i had reached majority ... well, that got her cousin laughing and mi landlord took the trouble to translate the jest to a some lads round over as refugees, good guitar players, acoustic -- i nod over to mi mate -- how you getting on with the steinweg fixed und fertig -- replies mi mate -- go on, tell the story where would you best like to place your hands ah, -- sez i -- that held her cousin intrigued too but you never know, sometimes how bad someone's life can be or at least feel, and some of these refugees can have had it so shit, that they themselves have wished to be imprisoned away from this sick society one bloke stitched his lips together a couple of years ago did you see that one -- i shake mi head at mi mate -- it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society -- sez mi mate -- jiddu krishnamurti hark at you sherlock -- mi mate lols, and sez -- so what did you tell them -- i shake mi head -- i don't think i've told you this one before ages ago, when we were working on the porter yor one who went up north rang me one day, she'd had petrol soaked rags pushed through her letter box who do you think's responsible -- i enquire -- she names a bloke, and a possible reason it's personal, but the blokes a member of the b n p allegedly and she's worried he just may get his mates involved british fucking what -- sez i -- if he is responsible, i'll learn that twat what it means to be fucking british i'll tattoo it on his forehead, backwards as an aide memoire -- mi mate roars in laughter, and continues -- apart from the swearing you sound just like your brother -- i scratch mi head look at mi mate, and ask -- did yor lot ever play war when you were kids did you ever knock on each other doors and say -- is your fred or jacky in yeah, well we're gonna play war on the first field, in the woods or up in the courts are you coming rat, tat, tat, tat no, it was discouraged -- replies mi mate -- yor lot -- i raise my eyes -- what lot -- replies mi mate -- how many working class mates do you have apart from you yes, apart from me -- mi mate just smirks and titters -- yor lot -- sez i, shaking mi head -- we use to play war loads when we were kids here, this is one of mi brother's just before we began a rematch can't we be the british this time -- said us opponents -- no -- corrects mi brother -- we are the british go on, can't we the british how come you always get to be the british just take a look at us -- barks mi brother -- we are obliviously the british obviously well we don't want to be germans again -- would come the reply -- well you don't have, do you why don't you join that crew over there they're the russians, go on, go on is that all sorted then are you united, good, because we are the wednesdays, let the battle commence ra tar, toe tat .... -- a little while later, mi mate come's back with noch zwei mal bier smiles, and sez -- how are you fine, just fine -- i smile back -- -- mi mate remains silent, i start again after some time -- when the lads got back from the war it wasn't all roses, do you know they're were loads of personal tragedies distance, fear, lack of contact, loneliness kids, i know a few stories where blokes demobbed back to more kids than they left with, stories i guess i know a few different ones mind -- i remain silent, still in my vague but heavilly pregnant state -- ah -- harks mi mate, and then in imitation of accent and face starts an old routine of a friend of a friend -- do you like my sister -- i lol, and name the lady who used to deliver it dressed in a silk shirt she claimed was the general garb of pimps, and those in thailand in particular -- do you know on some contracts -- i sez to mi mate -- it is rumoured that if your cabin's got a/c and room for another two even if it's only two little ones you can get them two little ones when ever you want, what a world orphans -- nods mi mate -- can you remember, i used to say in the same nonchalant manner i talked to that head teacher about metaphysical balances that it sempt to me, that kids somehow picked their own parents -- mi mate nods -- well, i think i was talking bollocks again -- mi mates lols, then stops and asks me about what i told the party with the refugees -- i stopped -- sez i, shaking mi head -- didn't i, i turned around to mi landlord after barking that comment offering to rectify an apparent identity crisis in mirrored writing on the frontal lobe of the antagonist and state the name of mi welsh mate they were in the room at the time supping tea and jotting in a tabloid whence i began to bark and froth in to my end of the phone line i think it was the first time mi welsh mate had ever heard me bark -- i shake mi head at mi landlord -- we din't have to much, did we not whilst us welsh mate was around no -- he replies -- they usually got there first i know -- sez i -- and i suspect they liked to bark in any case but on this occasion mi welsh mate just listened whilst i finished the phone call and then asked me calmly -- what are you going to do -- i shuck mi head at mi welsh mate -- listen, i only heard bits you can tell me it all if you wish but i don't need to know and maybe i'm not the best person to know but what ever you do don't tell this crew here about it -- sez mi welsh mate nodding out the cabin door -- at least until you know what you're going to do, or at least until i'm with you -- i stared at mi welsh mate who stared right back and then barked -- we are owed many favours on this job too fucking many to be honest -- then quieter -- don't let this crew know the best of them, would sort it out and wouldn't tell you, and then there are others, who'd let you know and try and take a piece of you -- mi landlord laughed i think more in recognition of us welsh mate's tonalities -- who did you tell i told us work colleague i thought they'd have a file on stuff like this but they didn't but they knew some one who did the night after i met this some one, at a broad left meeting down the don in the river side pub informed activist, gave me statistics phone numbers of active anti fascists we chatted bits, i shut off at the politics and watched this big old bloke barking away at various groups, angry but friendly bouncing off, some point or other it's all wrong you know -- this bloke kept saying until he began to froth -- well you know what am like the more he barks the more i giggle until he comes over and barks at me what you laughing for -- sez he -- it is all wrong you know i know -- sez i -- then what you laughing for -- sez he -- a dunno why do you do what you do -- sez i replying -- they need to see it -- sez he -- see what -- sez i -- the emotion i used to be a fucking miner am not going to let them forget -- i'm not giggling any more and i say to this bloke -- do you do this often yes, all the fucking time -- sez he -- oh, don't you have a love life -- and this bloke just towers above me and sez -- are you slow timing me cunt nayow auld luv -- sez i -- am not, am not slow timing any cunt a just wondered how tha kept it up that's all, r tha keeps body and soul together, it must be hard work yeah, it is cock -- sez he -- too fucking hard sometimes i smoke -- sez i to he and role another fag -- but i dunt know whether it's an oral fixation or it just gives me something to do with mi hands -- well the old bloke laughed and sat with us for a bit -- if it's any consolation -- offers us colleague after a few moments of contemplation-- marx wrote blah, and this means blah so we sure to see blah, and at some point blah the world will be a very different place no -- barks the big old bloke to us colleague -- it's of no fucking consolation what so ever -- and then he turns on me and barks -- do you know what i'd like to do with my hands to relieve the stress of both myself and the vast billions of folk world wide no -- sez i -- -- he stands up, teks of his coat rolls it up, in to a very tight bundle, and holding it sez -- to listen to your mates' talk they reckon capital's on it's death bed and it's just a matter of time, listen this is one cunt, that really does 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